| Location | Flixton, Manchester. |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 2/2008 |
| Date of Death | 2/2008 |
| Visitors | 2,586 since 15/08/2008 |
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Ruby Isabella Speakman-Dash
Born 16th February 2008
First daughter of Rachel Speakman and Les Dash.
Ruby was diagnosed with Agenesis of the Corpus Callosum, Nodular Heterotopia, Ventricularmegaly and
many other brain malformations. This condition, which is so rare that it doesnt even have a name,
would have caused her to be severely mentally disabled. She would never walk or talk, play, smile,
she would be strapped into a wheelchair, unable to eat or drink, she would never know who her
parents were or even be aware of her own existence. She would also be having severe seizures which
would be uncontrollable by medication. Her internal organs would struggle to function normally and
she would be poorly all the time.
Ruby died on 12th February and was born on 16th February at 12.38am. She weighed 2lb 11oz and
measured 39cm. I was 30 weeks pregnant.
Our baby girl meant the world to us and we would have done anything to make her better. I feel raw
from feeling so empty without our precious daughter in our lives in both the physical and emotional
sense. My hand still goes to my tummy when I think I feel her kick, only to be dropped back down to
the hell that has become my life without her, when I don’t feel anything. My stomach knots, my
throat burns, my arms ache, my breath catches and I sob and sob every time I think about her and how
much I miss her. I’d mapped out her entire existence, our plans for her, our dreams and hopes to
provide only the best for our child, our daughter. From the first moment I saw the positive sign on
the pregnancy test, the only thing I wanted in this world was for us all to be together.
Poem for Ruby:-
As I sit here looking at your photo
I start to think of what should have been
I think of the nappies I should have changed
And all the firsts I should have seen
I wonder who you would look like
Would your pretty eyes still be so blue?
Would you smile just like your Daddy?
Would you be like me or just be you?
Would you have crawled along the floor
Going so fast to get away?
Would you have liked all the toys we bought
Would you have been happy just to play?
But then the sadness hits me
Like a bolt of lightning through my heart
I will never get to see those things
Your life was over before it could start
I will never get to hold you close
Snuggle so closely , tight to me
I will never get to see you smile
Your whole face is just a memory
You will never take your first steps
Wobbling over while you walk
You will never hold your arms up to me
I will never hear you talk
I wont wave you off as you go to school
Tears streaming as I embarrass you
I wont put a plaster on your grazed knee
I miss all the things that I wont do
I wont ever watch you get married
Looking beautiful all in white
I try not to cry for you
And I try with all my might
So as I sit here crying tears so blue
Trying hard not to scream
I have to believe you are always near me
And I'll see you grow up in my dreams.
Wave of Light - 15/09/09
Candles are a gift of light
A tiny sun
A bit of star.
No other dancer in the night
Dances with such sheer delight
Each a glimpse of what we are
Shining innocent and pure.
Love to you and all your family precious angel xxxx
Life's A Climb - Miley Cyrus
I can almost see it.
that dream I'm dreaming, but
there's a voice inside of my head, tellin'
you'll never reach it
every step I'm takin'
every move I make
feels lost in no direction,
my faith is shakin'
but I gotta keep tryin'
gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb
The struggles I'm facing
the changes I'm taking
sometimes they knock me down, but
no I'm not breaking
I may not know where, but
these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
just keep pushing on, but
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb
Keep on movin'
keep climbin'
keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
the climb
keep the faith, keep your faith!
My Dear Family xx
It's me again from Heaven
With a message from above
Feel my spirit all around you
As I sprinkle you with love...
***********
I have watched you, as your tears flow
I have heard your silent screams
I know you sleep with visions
Of me visiting your dreams...
***********
I have come and sat beside you
Placed my hands upon your face
Wiped away the many teardrops
I so wish I could erase...
***********
I have watched you every day now
Seen such pain within your eyes
I just wish that there were some way
I could help you realise...
***********
I am happy up in Heaven
In this peaceful loving place
Where I will be here waiting
To welcome you with my embrace...
***********
You will join me here in Heaven
When your time comes you’ll see
Leave your Earthly cares behind you
Travel on to where you’re free...
**********
I have heard you ask to go now
But there is more for you to do
I promise I'll be waiting
When your time on earth is through ...
Dear Jessie - by Madonna
Baby face don't grow so fast
Make a special wish that will always last
Rub this magic lantern
He will make your dreams come true for you
Ride the rainbow to the other side
Catch a falling star and then take a ride
To the river that sings and the clover that
Brings good luck to you, it's all true
Pink elephants and lemonade, dear Jessie
Hear the laughter running through the love parade
Candy kisses and a sunny day, dear Jessie
See the roses raining on the love parade
If the land of make believe
Is inside your heart it will never leave
There's a golden gate where the fairies all wait
And dancing moons, for you
Close your eyes and you'll be there
Where the mermaids sing as they comb their hair
Like a fountain of gold you can never grow old
Where dreams are made, your love parade
Pink elephants and lemonade, dear Jessie
Hear the laughter running through the love parade
Candy kisses and a sunny day, dear Jessie
See the roses raining on the love parade
Your dreams are made inside the love parade
It's a holiday inside the love parade
On the merry-go-round of lovers and white turtle doves
Leprechauns floating by, this is your lullaby
Sugarplum fingertips kissing your honey lips
Close your eyes sleepy head, is it time for your bed
Never forget what I said, hang on you're already there
Close your eyes and you'll be there
Where the mermaids sing as they comb their hair
Like a fountain of gold you can never grow old
Where dreams are made, your love parade
Pink elephants and lemonade, dear Jessie
Hear the laughter running through the love parade
Candy kisses and a sunny day, dear Jessie
See the roses raining on the love parade
A Mother's Love
I didn’t have to look into your eyes
To fall in love with you.
I didn’t have to hear you cry
To know you loved me too.
I didn’t need to hold your hand
To cherish you always.
Within my womb we shared our hearts
You touched my soul
You sweetened my spirit
You gave me memories I’ll always
Hold very dear
Yes, my heart aches since
You departed so soon
But a mothers love does not
End with death
For you are my child
my love is forever yours.
Live For Me
If I could, I would tell you that I love you
And that I chose to spend the time I had with you.
If I could, I would tell you that you are not to blame
For all was written in the stars, so long ago.
If I could I would tell you that I love you
And just how much our time together meant to me;
How I remember every kiss, and the loving arms that held me
And in my memory, I beg of you, please don't forget to live!
LIVE FOR ME! Don't take a moment for granted
Every breath you take and every friend you make is a precious, precious gift.
LIVE FOR ME! Open up your heart and let the people that surround you
Help you love again - LOVE and LIVE for me!
If I could, I would tell you that I love you
And I remember every precious moment shared.
I would ask you to release any pain that still remains
And fill your heart with peace and love for you and me.
If I could, I would tell you that I love you
I would hold your hand and tell you that I am fine.
Cause here I play with the angels, and I even dance with God among the stars
And the love and light I feel is all I need!
LIVE FOR ME! Don't take a moment for granted
Every breath you take and every friend you make is a precious, precious gift.
LIVE FOR ME! Open up your heart and let the people that surround you
Help you love again - LOVE and LIVE for me!!!
Forgive yourself and love yourself and
Love all those around you; in memory of me.
LIVE FOR ME! Your life is a gift of mine as much as it is yours
So please, please, LIVE and LOVE for Me!
I Shall Remember You
I shall remember you for as long
as there are fields of snow
And there are flowers in the ground
with strength to grow.
As long as there are stars above
and moonbeams on the sea,
And just as long as there are songs
of love and memory.
I shall remember you today
and dreams of you tonight,
And look for you tomorrow when
the sun begins to light.
Whatever season, month or year
this much will be the same,
The special sound of joy will be
the mention of your name.
I shall remember you for as long
as there are earth and sky.
And all eternity
may it take to say goodbye.
Two Poems
♥ღ♥ A Last Goodbye ♥ღ♥
Though happily each year began
I had to die whilst very young
It is so long since our last touch
And I miss your presence there so much
Of many things I needed to learn
So to this place God made me turn
Yet with so many things to do
I have taken this moment to speak to you
The life that was, was not to be mine
Yet within this world it has worked out fine
Where I am now I have found new friends
In a place called Heaven where the spirit ascends
Straight to this world few pass it by
And no one here can really die
Although this child you cannot see
I know you'd be so proud of me
I look forward to when I'll see you mum
So until it is your time to come
Enjoy your life
And please don't cry
I just came to say goodbye.
Steve Franklin Palmer
♥ ♥ HEAVEN ♥ ♥
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without the children there,
Playing hide and seek in pearly mists
Free from every pain and care.
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their carefree rapture,
Scrambling through the fluffy clouds
Each happy moment to capture
♥ ♥
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their shouts and laughter
Echoing across Elysian fields
As starbursts they chase after
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their joyful choir
Ringing through celestial realms
Sweet voices rising ever higher
♥ ♥
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their radiant light,
Undimmed by earth's murky shades
Their robes shining bright.
Heaven would not be Heaven
Without their smiles of pleasure,
Bearing sheaves of rainbow flowers;
Children are Heaven's treasure.
♥ ♥
I Cried For You
You're beautiful so silently
It lies beneath a shade of blue
It struck me so violently
When I looked at you
But others pass, they never pause
To feel that magic in your hand
To me you're like a wild rose
They never understand why
I cried for you
When the sky cried for you
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you
That beauty need only be a whisper
I'll cross the sea for a different world
With your treasure, a secret for me to hold
In many years they may forget
This love of ours or that we met
They may not know
How much you meant to me
I cried for you
And the sky cried for you
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you
That beauty need only be a whisper
Without you now I see
How fragile the world can be
And I know you've gone away
But in my heart you'll always stay
I cried for you
When the sky cried for you
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you
That beauty need only be a whisper
That beauty need only be a whisper.
Lyrics by Katie Melua
The Little Wave
The story is about a little wave, bobbing along in the ocean, having a grand old time. He's enjoying the wind and the fresh air – until he notices the other waves in front of him, crashing against the shore. “My God, this terrible,” the wave says. “Look what's going to happen to me!”
Then along comes another wave. It sees the first wave, looking grim, and it says to him: “Why do you look so sad?” The first wave says: “You don't understand! We're all going to crash! All of us waves are going to be nothing! Isn't it terrible?”
The second wave says: “No, you don't understand. You're not a wave; you're part of the ocean.”
Taken from the novel "Tuesdays With Morrie" by Mitch Albom.
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