| Location | Flixton, Manchester. |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 16/02/2008 |
| Date of Death | 2/2008 |
| Visitors | 3,654 since 15/08/2008 |
| Creator |
Ruby Isabella Speakman-Dash
Born 16th February 2008
First daughter of Rachel Speakman and Les Dash.
Ruby was diagnosed with Agenesis of the Corpus Callosum, Nodular Heterotopia, Ventricularmegaly and many other brain malformations. This condition, which is so rare that it doesnt even have a name, would have caused her to be severely mentally disabled. She would never walk or talk, play, smile, she would be strapped into a wheelchair, unable to eat or drink, she would never know who her parents were or even be aware of her own existence. She would also be having severe seizures which would be uncontrollable by medication. Her internal organs would struggle to function normally and she would be poorly all the time.
Ruby died on 12th February and was stillborn on 16th February at 12.38am. She weighed 2lb 11oz and measured 39cm. I was 30 weeks pregnant.
Our baby girl meant the world to us and we would have done anything to make her better. I feel raw from feeling so empty without our precious daughter in our lives in both the physical and emotional sense. My hand still goes to my tummy when I think I feel her kick, only to be dropped back down to the hell that has become my life without her, when I donβt feel anything. My stomach knots, my throat burns, my arms ache, my breath catches and I sob and sob every time I think about her and how much I miss her. Iβd mapped out her entire existence, our plans for her, our dreams and hopes to provide only the best for our child, our daughter. From the first moment I saw the positive sign on the pregnancy test, the only thing I wanted in this world was for us all to be together.
Poem for Ruby:-
As I sit here looking at your photo
I start to think of what should have been
I think of the nappies I should have changed
And all the firsts I should have seen
I wonder who you would look like
Would your pretty eyes still be so blue?
Would you smile just like your Daddy?
Would you be like me or just be you?
Would you have crawled along the floor
Going so fast to get away?
Would you have liked all the toys we bought
Would you have been happy just to play?
But then the sadness hits me
Like a bolt of lightning through my heart
I will never get to see those things
Your life was over before it could start
I will never get to hold you close
Snuggle so closely , tight to me
I will never get to see you smile
Your whole face is just a memory
You will never take your first steps
Wobbling over while you walk
You will never hold your arms up to me
I will never hear you talk
I wont wave you off as you go to school
Tears streaming as I embarrass you
I wont put a plaster on your grazed knee
I miss all the things that I wont do
I wont ever watch you get married
Looking beautiful all in white
I try not to cry for you
And I try with all my might
So as I sit here crying tears so blue
Trying hard not to scream
I have to believe you are always near me
And I'll see you grow up in my dreams.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUBY
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Birthday Remembrance
Thinking of you on your birthday Ruby
But that is nothing new
For no day dawns and no day ends
Without a thought of you.
We cannot send a birthday card,
Your hand we cannot touch,
But God will take our greetings
To the one we love so much.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUBY
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bigs hugs from me to you and your family
and friends that you miss you ever day but
in our hearts forever you will not be forgotin
all my love hugs and xxxx from me Sylvie
mommy of Samantha Belanger and
Granddaughter of Albert and Marie-Jeanne
Belanger take care bye for now.
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BIG HUGS RUBY
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β±β°β° Angel Day β±β°β°
β±β°β° Your Angel Day in Heaven β±β°β°
β±β°β° Many tears will fall for you β±β°β°
β±β°β° You touched so many loving hearts β±β°β°
β±β°β° There’s so many missing you β±β°β°
β±β°β° As you now live in paradise β±β°β°
β±β°β° Its Heaven up above stay β±β°β°
β±β°β° Close to all your loved β±β°β°
β±β°β° ones For it’s you they β±β°β°
β±β°β° miss and love β±β°β°
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β±β°β° family and friends that you miss you ever day β±β°β°
β±β°β° but in our hearts forever you will not be β±β°β°
β±β°β° forgoten you take care love from me β±β°β°
β±β°β° Sylvie mommy of Samantha Belanger β±β°β°
β±β°β° and Granddaughter of Albert and β±β°β°
β±β°β° Marie-Jeanne Belanger take care β±β°β°
β±β°β° hugs and XXXX bye for now good β±β°β°
β±β°β° night β±β°β°
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....Goodnight and God Bless..........
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♥ ♥ ♥ Angel Day bigs hugs from me to you and your family and friends that you miss you ever day but in our hearts forever take care love you bye for now hugs love from me.♥ ♥ ♥
Princess
Cinderella walked on broken glass
Sleeping Beauty let a whole lifetime pass
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast
Jasmine married a common thief
Ariel walked on land for life
Snow White barely escaped a knife
It was all about blood, sweat and tears
Because Love means facing your biggest fears.
Thinking of you as your third Angel Day and Birthday approaches.
Lots of love to you and all your family - especially your lovely Mummy XXX
gone to soon
We weren't prepared for you to go
You were too full of life to be
Taken away from us so soon
It's still hard too believe
How much we'll miss your smile
And your laughter in our ears
Your absence leaves a hole in us
We're filling with our tears
You taught us how to be our best
To in the moment live
To never hold a grudge for long
And loyal friendship give
Your presence was a light and joy..."
I Lost My Child Today
I lost my child today.
People came to weep and cry
As I just sat and stared, dry eyed.
They struggled to find words to say
To try and make the pain go away.
I walked the floor in disbelief.
I lost my child today.
I lost my child last month.
Most of the people went away.
Some still call and some still stay.
I wait to wake up from this dream
"This can't be real" I want to scream.
Yet everything is locked inside,
God, help me, I want to die.
I lost my child last month.
I lost my child last year.
Now people, who had come, have gone.
I sit and struggle all day long,
To bear the pain so deep inside.
And now my friends just question, "Why?
Why does this mother not move on?
Just sits and sings the same old song.
Good heavens, it has been so long!"
I lost my child last year.
Time has not moved on for me.
The numbness it has disappeared.
My eyes have now cried many tears.
I see the look upon your face,
"She must move on and leave this place."
Yet I am trapped right here in time.
The songs the same, as is the rhyme:
I lost my child......Today.
Hello
I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your face a thousand times
I sometimes dream you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?
I would see it in your eyes
I would see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide
'Cause I'd know just what to say
And I'd know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...
I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely,
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...
Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying ... I love you
Lyrics by Lionel Richie
waching over me
She's always watching over me,
I feel her presence near,
She's always here to listen,
And guide me through my fears.
She's a very special angel,
One God choose just for me,
She was once my Mom here on earth,
But that wasn't long to be.
God called her home one night,
My fear and rage did see the,
If He were a loving God,
Why take my Mom from me.
But in time I saw the plan,
He unveiled for me to see,
He had taken my Mom away,
But He gave her back to me.
There was only one thing different,
About this wondrous thing,
She just traded her faded house-dress,
For a halo and snow white wings.
Shoney Winstead
little angles
evry little angle i know in side evry one is fun lafter and joy
so for all the anle you are a bubble of fun and joy so let it out and emjoy your self
thrue darknes throgh blule i will be there with you all we go throght hold my hand and we will be safe in each others little hartes
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